MakingLove

my dad just bought White Tgm Guitar for me. *mainmata*
its dosen't look like in the picture, its the brown colour suppose to be black. actualy I want Gibson, but its like $300 bucks which is not worth is. fyi im a beginners so its no use having an expensive guitar and im not expert at it. so was saying, I just got this on Saturday , this Saturday. its my birthday present and I DO LOVE IT. just realize that this year I only have 2 kind of present, including this guitar, like the old times, few years back i think, Rowey gave me this cutelittle panda and a box full of chocolate, isn't it? hahah i kinda forget bout it.

And I found out its very "memalukan" when so many people greets you. HAHA. when I'm off to school last Saturday, and my friends greet me with their LOUD VOICE and everybody is looking at you and smiling and everything, all the attention is at you it feels awkward, sometimes i do like all the eyes are looking at me, but about this birthday thing, i dont want to.. im getting older and i must be more mature. i know.. =.=' AHAHAH.


butterfly in my stomach :-

OH GOD! the SPN21 result already came out, which makes me feel wanna scream cause I feel Nervous and Afraid. Two feeling in the same time? I hate that. I wish I pass, REALLY! its okay if I get into Normal class, I don't wanna get into Express class, well I didnt even to get into that class, HAHA, it dosent suit me. I ain't genius like the others , besides I'm lazy.. Im not proud of it, I just wanna tell the truth. hahah. I makes some of the teacher wanna kill me. I know that, soorry =.='. And also I wanna get into Technical school because.... I'm not good in this History thingy whatever.. heyy, I kinda giveup actualy... cause even when I studied so hard I can't even pass, do you know how suck it is? well even you pass, its just "nyawanyawa ikan", what I mean by that is my marks is not that good, I';m the worst of the worst. well... THE WORST IN THE FAMILY.


tried so hard to :-
1. make people happy!
2. to be polite with the others, in the end they make you wanna kick them at the head,
3. to be a genius like the other. like STARIGHT "A's"
4. be good.
5. be happy but im not, i'm sick always being at home.
and others... -.-'